Words seem to be at a standstill for the moment. Caught just between my heart and my mind. For all of those out there who may suffer.... You are not alone. Depression creeps up on you quietly. "At the very beginning, you start to struggle with a lot of things, but...you usually just ignore them. It's like … Continue reading Depression creeps up on you quietly.
Depression leaves you totally exhausted and disconnected from reality. I was writing everyday until, suddenly the "light bulb went out". Just as quickly; I turned into mush. All I wanted to do was lay and sleep in bed all day/night, with my sleeping pills. I could no longer formulate words. They just sat in a big … Continue reading Waiting…
When your alone, in the dark, locked up inside a place you don't want to be....you try to find meaning. You try to find hope. You try to find hope anywhere and everywhere. You start looking in places you never even knew existed before. Before all of this suffocating darkness found you. You'll dig into … Continue reading ~*That Dark Place*~
Sometimes, our own worst enemy can be just fragmented pieces of an overactive mind. Figments of our very own imagination. The angel sitting on one shoulder.....while the devil is laughing on the other. For all the moments that I'm left with this quiet/loud mind of mine.....I ponder at times, if I will go insane. And if so, how long will it take. Food for … Continue reading Food for thought, for the “worried” mind.
For when you fear that the darkness will swallow you whole and when you feel that you possibly can't go on anymore.... "What the devil is the point of surviving, going on living, when it's a drag? But you see, that's what people do."- Alan Watts Time length: 3:55 https://youtu.be/uJStjV4HkSE
"We don't seek the painful experiences that hue our identities. But we seek our identities, in the wake of painful experiences. We cannot bare a pointless torment. But we can endure a great pain, if we believe that it is purposeful." “Ease makes less of an impression on us than struggle. We could have been ourselves … Continue reading “How the worst moments in our lives, can make us who we are”.
As many of you know, I suffer from severe depression. Along my journey with depression, I've somehow accumulated a new disorder, although not diagnosed from a professional (even though it doesn't take a genius for this one). I suffer horribly from Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD) and haven't left the house in many months. Not even … Continue reading
Once your soul truly knows how to weep. Or your heart learns the feeling of being broken. It can never beat rhythmically as it once did before. You will be left with pieces, Never completely put back together. Like a picture missing a puzzle piece. Wind will whistle through its cracks, Movement will begin to … Continue reading Once Your Heart And Soul Learns How To Break
I can't tell you how incredibly frustrating it is, to actually get out of bed and to motivate your body to act like a normal human being, like every other person on this planet is doing, from what seems to me, effortlessly. Just going to the kitchen to make a simple piece of toast turned … Continue reading Don’t cry over burnt toast
Lately I've been afraid. I'm afraid all the time. But deep down, I don't know why. Why am I constantly running away. Is it because my thoughts are on overdrive and it's my body's response to flee before I overload? Flee from this unknown hurt that is always, constantly welling up inside of me? What … Continue reading HBO, “My Depression” (Video below)